Day 124

Yes, I'm eating horribly but I'm trying not to stress over it
I have so many things going on right now
I have other things that need stressing over
It sure doesn't help that I have 1000 pieces of candy laying around

Day 123

Ok, so I still have no control
I have tried today but can't seem to get enough food
I'm also getting a cold and when I'm sick I can't stand to be hungry when the rest of my body feels like shit at least my belly feels good
So I just trying not to beat myself up

Day 122

Damn.....
I held it together really well today until it came to dinner
Furr's...
Now I feel like shit emotionally and physically
Tomorrow is another day

Day 121

Yes, I'm a little late
I was up late doing school work
Crawled into bed about 11:30 and thought I forgot to blob
But didn't want to get back out of bed again

Good news/Bad news

Good-I lost the weight I had gained over my rough week and a little more
So loss 1.2 ish

Bad-I went to eat fuckin Chinese food yesterday!
Why the hell do I do that?
We use to eat Chinese a lot but I haven't had it in at least 6 months

Day 120

I made it through the day by only using 2 of my flex points
And it is a freakin miracle!
I had a meeting with snacks all over the table and trick-or-treating at Sprint
As for the meeting, I choose to just get 2 candy corn pumpkins
At Sprint, I just ate 2 skinny small tootsie rolls and 1 jaw breaker
I'm trying man!

I did get on the scale this morning and I am almost back to what I weighed before my week from hell

I have been keeping track very closely of my flex points
I am at 22/35
And 13 more for tomorrow

Day 119

Thanks for all of your concerns...I pooped twice today!
Can't wait to get on the scale in the am
But I'm not expecting a miracle

Very proud of myself
I turned down treats in the office and dinner with a friend
Dawnpower baby!

Had the usual Thursday night pizza
3 slices of cheese pizza
Yes, I did go over a little in my points but using my flex points

Not looking forward to the temptation of all the candy over the next week
It starts tomorrow night...

Day 118

The chili was so good!
I am having a hell of a time figuring points
I thought I would knock the points down to 8
But after looking through the WW point book
Most of the chili's were around 5 points
So I don't know how to count it

The faculty meeting today had lots of candy and food
I only ate a mini granola bar and half a serving of pretzels

Would love to weigh
But still haven't pooped since Sunday
So I am not going to even attempt getting on a scale

Day 117

Well I am up a little
I am now 29.2
But considering all that I have eaten in the past week...that's ok
And, TMI WARNING, I haven't pooped since Sunday so I'm sure I will loose a little when that happens...

I had soup and a grilled cheese for dinner
Did you know that the American cheese by Borden is only 2 points?
So with my 2 point bread, I had a 4 point grill cheese
Not bad!
I also found some light Cambell's Wedding Soup-3 points for 1/2 a can

I made chili tonight to cook tomorrow in the crockpot
3 kinds a beans and hamburger meat
I figured it out to be 12 points per serving
That is damn high!
But I got to looking and a can of means is 3.5 servings and the crockpot is full of chili
So I think it should be closer to about 9 points
Looking forward to dinner tomorrow!

Day 116

Hello blog buddies
I'm better today
What a difference a day and meds make!

I body feels much better today now that I am putting healthy food in it

I keep forgetting to tell you that I found another yummy snack
Kashi chewy granola bars
I have tried the trail mix and the honey almond...they are both really good
But the trail mix is the best-it has dried cranberries and whole almonds
The trail mix is 2 points while the honey almond is 3
Both have 4g of fiber

Going to suck it up and get on the scales tomorrow morning

My goal is to get rid of 20 more by Dec. 31st
That would be awesome if I could 50 gone!

Day 112-115

I think my body needs to come with a warning today
Proceed with caution or I will BIGHT YOUR FUCKING HEAD OFF!
I went camping without my meds!
I left my freakin make-up bag here that had all that kind of shit in it
The first days were ok but today was horrible!
I have been dizzy on and off and we aren't even going to mention the irritability...
As soon as I got home today I took my pill
So, if I ever wonder if my antidepressant really works...it sure in the hell does!

On top of all that mess, my body has been rebelling today on all the shit that was put into my body
I have had an upset stomach today
I have never been so ready to get back on the boat before

Ok, let's end this party on a happy note
I did have so much more energy than in years past
I did a lot of walking and hiking
And even enjoyed it!

Day 111

I am not very inspiring tonight, sorry

A donut and a big gulp for breakfast
Lunch-pizza, coke and 2 cookies
Dinner-pizza and coke

Hope I don't see pizza anytime soon
I have had my fill of it!

I am really on my cycle!
I spotted some yesterday
I have only done that once before since my surgery a year ago this week
So, I really do have something to blame my craziness on

I am actually looking forward to coming back from camping and getting back to the swing of things on Monday!

No blog until Sunday or Monday

Day 110

With it being day 110, I wish I had something wonderful to tell you
I gave into temptation tonight and went to Mazzio's buffet for dinner
I feel like I am PMSing...it seems like the women around me at work are too
So I'm sure I am on the same schedule as them

The clues this week were the headaches for 2 days straight and today I couldn't get enough calories in me
I was starving all day

So let's just blame it on my cycle!

Day 109

How stupid can you be?
I am laying in the bath tub with the jets going and the door closed
Herb comes in to give me the phone because somebody from school is on the phone
What the fuck?
I didn't say a word just gave him the WTF look...

Ate good today
Fighting a headache all day
Hopefully lose a little when I get on the scales tomorrow
We leave for camping with all the family on Thursday and you know how much control I have around them...

Day 108

1.4 gone!
So a total of 31.4 all together
I am very happy with that considering my stress-o-meter was through the roof this week

I did really good today but when it came to dinner a bunch of us ended up at Ci-Ci's after the big parade (ghetto pizza)
I ate the hell out of some pizza!
I was starvin'

I have really started thinking about surgery and beginning to look into it
Looked up the local doctors and looked at before and after pics
I wonder if I could get insurance to pay for some then I could get my boobs done too
Who knows!

Day 107

I woke up this morning with a cold
Yuck!

I have stayed within my point range today
That's a good thing

A lot of times when I am sick I want to eat whatever I want
If my body feels bad at least my belly will be full attitude

But not this time!

Day 105 & 106

Thursday-
I very stressful day
I hung in there through the day but when it came to dinner...
We went to Earl's Rib Palace (not impressed)

Friday-
Another crazy day
Donuts and a big gulp for breakfast
Bueno for lunch
Hot dog and cookies for dinner

Need to get back on track

Day 104

I can't wait to weigh tomorrow morning
My jeans were falling off me today
Very tired
Worked late and came home to a messy house and crazy ass kids
Night to all

Day 103

Well, what do ya think of the new look?
I can't decide
I love pink but just can't get the dots pink
I will keep working on it

Tonight was rough with the kids
They were wacko
It didn't help that Chloe had tumbling at 4 and Drayton had karate at 6
I know it has only just begun
If I can just control my urges to eat crap I will do really good on these busy days because I don't stop

I wore my new jeans today and I thought I looked very fat
But I got so many compliments and questions about how much weight I had lost
Nice feeling

Day 102

My belly hurts!
We tried the new Furr's tonight
Not much different that GC but it is closer to my house
That's a bad thing!

I did find some jeans at Wally World
I was wearing a 24
These are a 20
So down 2 sizes...not bad

Day 101

I made beans and cornbread tonight for dinner
I looked up cornbread in the WW book and it was 2 points
I decided to figure it out myself because I was using egg beaters, skim milk and light butter (instead of oil)
1 point a slice..ha!
I had 3 pieces of cornbread and 1 1/2 cups of beans and it was only 5.5 points

I tried on jeans at Gordmans
God, I hate my tummy
Things would fit if it wasn't for that damn thing
I wish I could get it cut off now!

Day 100

Wow, 100 days
And 30.2 pounds!
I made it earlier than I thought!

Tonight was a good dinner
I had planned our usual pasta with white sauce and chicken cooked with olive oil and garlic
But I didn't have any white sauce
So, I baked chicken with a little olive oil, seasoning salt and celery salt
Also baked new potatoes with light butter, salt and Parmesan
It was really good!

I had planned to reflect a little in this blog but I'm not in the mood but here goes
What has change?
My body perception-I seem to be a little more proud of my body than I use to be
Even though I am not exercising I still have a lot more energy...I really noticed it when I went hiking last weekend
My bladder-for the last 2-3 years I have worn a pad not because I am bleeding but because I have no control of my bladder. I have talked to my Dr. about having it fixed but never gotten around to it. I have always chalked it up to having 3 babies. But I have stopped wearing pads as of a month ago. It is so wonderful to not have that bulky thing between my legs! Yes, I do have a little leaking when I first get out of bed and if I wait to long but nothing like it use to be...who knew?

30 pounds lighter and 100 days later

Day 99

Yes, it is a little late
I got into bed last night to put Noah to sleep and didn't get back out
So here goes...

I went to the store today and found a couple of things
I found Mrs. Baird's high fiber bread-2 points for 2 slices and 12g of fiber!
I had mentioned before that I am hooked on the Fiber One PB granola bars...they were out at Walmart so I found something new
100 calorie Oreo Granola bar and 2 points-they are a little small and pretty good
No Fiber 1 PB or anything but they are good

I am planning my 100th day post to be a reflection of how far I have come
PLUS A HUGE SURPRISE!!!!

Day 98

1.8
That was quick!
I can definitely hit 30 in 2 weeks
I would love to hit 30 on the 100th day
Wouldn't that be wonderful!

The kids and I stopped by City Bites (AKA Cookie Bites by Chloe)
I thought I would use some of my flex points and get a sugar cookie
I was thinking it would be in the 5-6 point range
10!
Dotti's web site doesn't have much City Bites info
But I went to City Bites website and they now have nutritional info so I was able to figure it out
That's ok though, I still have 12 more flex points to use over the next 2 days

I am glad to see their NI online
It will help me choose a little better next time

Day 97

Emotionally a lot better today
I don't want to kill him today but that could change at the drop of a hat

A funny...
This new medication I am on has given me gas
Yes, I toot a lot but now it is insane!
I walk around tooting 24 hours a day
So if you are standing beside me and you think "did she just fart"
Most likely yes
The good thing, they really don't stink
Thank goodness I work with k and they are loud so hopefully they won't notice

Came home to Little Cesaer's
I had 3 slices and still only went over by 4 points
Maybe it was the big gulp I had earlier

I swear that put crack in coke
If I had my choice of an extra snack, I would choose a coke
Well it would be a toss up between that and a donut

Day 96

Today was a hard day
My husband and I are at each other throats again and I wanted to turn to food so bad
But the good news is that I didn't
Isn't it funny how you want to turn back to your old crutch to make it all better

I plan to get on the scales tomorrow
I hope that I didn't gain any from my little back slide last week

Day 95

It feels so good to be eating healthy again

I took the kids to the mall after school and we ate at Chickfila
I only had a grilled chicken and 1/2 a small order of waffle fries
No coke! Can you freakin believe it?

I even got home tonight and added up my points and I was really low
I could have had the freakin coke
Bu that's ok, I had one tonight
:)